Studying the Old Testament

So I thought it would be a great way to help my husband learn the scripture stories we are teaching to our little 3 year olds at church. We are strongly encouraged to study the scriptures as a family, and I do think that it is a great thing. Except with our issue of infertility. Nathan is infertile, and we have been reading about Jacob and the love of his life, Rebekah. She was infertile. Jacob was allowed to have multiple wives, and had been tricked by her father to marry her older sister first. She was able to have children. And then Jacob also married a couple of their servants who also bore him children. This made Nathan think that if I could just have a second husband on the side and get pregnant, we could have kids that way. He is not dealing with his being infertile. He was serious in wishing I could do this. We are foster parents, and are also going through the process to be approved to adopt. We are doing all we can ourselves, short of breaking the laws, to have the family we desperately seek. He thinks that the adoption will be denied, on the grounds that denial is possible. That is like saying a tree is going to die because we planted it. Every couple that applies has the same chances of being approved pretty much. But he seems sure that we will, and that will mean that God has denied our desire to have children. It is possible that our trial to bear in this life may be to be childless. I know that any trial we are given can be overcome, but I truly think that if we never have children it would prove to be too much for him. I think I would be okay, it wouldn't be easy. Especially when Mothers' Day comes around. But I know there will be a chance for me eventually to be a mother. Nathan just can't get his head around this concept though, and I fear it may destroy our marriage. He doesn't look at me the same way anymore. He knows that I would love to be a mother, and he knows it is his fault that I can't achieve this, naturally anyway. It breaks my heart! Being a mother would be great, but it is not everything to me anymore. I have a good job, working with good people, with possibility of advancement. I could be a career woman. I would much rather be a housewife, but that may not happen, and I can adapt. The big question is: can Nathan? The next question is: should I continue through this with him if he will continually question whether I would be happy having children by another man? The thing he just can't seem to cement in his head is that I may end up with another infertile man if I remarry. It may not solve my side of the problem. I'm happy with or without children. It is a conscious choice we make as to how things affect us. I wish he would just choose to love life. I think I will change our scripture study to the New Testament. The words of our Savior are there. That may bring comfort to his soul.