Time to Catchup with the Teasdales

Wow! It has been a busy, stressful six months since my last post. The foster kids went back to the Christmas Box House to transition either back to their parents or their adoptive homes. Nathan has agreed to stop doing foster car.e since we really don't have the time for all of their appointments. I was not able to keep a schedule like I needed to at work, and Nathan was either going in late, taking long lunches, or taking full days off. It took me about a month to convince him, but he finally saw that we just don't have the time right now. We thought about adopting these kids, but we definitely could not handle the girl's disabilities (ADHD combined possibly with autism) and the boy's growing disrespect and aggression. So now we are focused completely on adoption. Nathan says that his parents may be willing to cosign on a loan for the funds we need. That would be nice, but at the same time I know that that would give them more reason to control our lives. He also told me he spoke with his mother about living in their basement which they have been remodeling into a mother-in-law apartment. Again, nice but I worry about how controlling they will be. Great news for one of my coworkers -- she is preggo! Unfortunately, the Big Green Monster reared its head when I heard it. I was terribly jealous. It doesn't help that her hubby hasn't been happy about it. The big question that kept popping up was why them -- only she is excited about this -- and not us when we would both be so thrilled? I wanted to be happy for her, and knew I should be. After all, now she won't have to play the waiting game anymore, and that was a good thing. I tried by myself to get over these feelings, but could not. The thought came to me that I had to get over this as it would make work unbearableby having to see her just about everyday. I did have a thought right after that tol read some articles on lds.org about selfishness. I am so grateful for the Holy Ghost! After ssearching for and pondering over a few, I felt better. I apologized to her about having these feelings, and she said she totally understood. Now I can honestly and happily say that I am excited for her. Well I have to go. I need to get ready to drive Nathan to Salt Lake City to see a specialist at the University of Utah. I hope we make it there and back in one piece. I hate driving in Salt Lake County. Love ya'll!