Whew! What a month it has been!

Well, there is alot to update you on! The week of our fifth anniversary (September 19th), we recieved to big pieces of good news. We had recently submitted our paperwork to LDS Family Services for approval to adopt. We have been approved! Now starts the waiting process. The other piece of news was that there was a sibling group in foster care that they wanted to place with us. These are the children pictured here. They are brother and sister. Their names are Kjerstin (she will be 8 in December), and Jaden (just turned 7 this month). They have been with us now for about a month. We have been blessed with great resources in the school district and the city to help us out. I didn't think we could pull this off, since we both work full-time. But with the after-school program four days a week, and daycare on Fridays, things have worked out. Now I am not thrilled to be a working mother. In fact, some days I down right hate it. I was not brought up to be a working mother. My parents taught me the importance of the mother being in the home. I still strongly feel that it is important. I just do not see a way to make it work out that way -- yet. The longer Nathan works for the district, the more money he will make. He is happy doing the work that he does. He gets to be with the children at the school for a couple hours. They seem to enjoy having him there. We hope to eventually get me in a part-time position. I could at least tolerate that. I did often get bored with just the housework and a couple of kids around. But I find my energy too taxed these days. I come home and I make dinner, then its bath time and off to bed. That leaves me just enough time to do a load each of dishes and laundry. Nathan has been a great help. He takes care of what I can't do. Which unfortunately is more than I would like to leave for him. He is also much happier now. Almost a complete turnaround from a year-and-a-half ago. I don't enjoy fostering children as much as he does. He wants to continue doing it, while I would be fine quitting. But I also discovered something else. I have gotten used to just having Nathan around. I have been feeling that these foster kids are invading my space, and perhaps am even a little jealous of the attention Nathan gives them. I know he is right in paying attention to them. I know that these feelings are wrong, but I am really having a hard time getting past them. I know I need to get past them, and that the Lord will help me. Well, it is late. Must go back to work in the morning. Ug! The one thing I envy Nathan -- winter recess. He gets to stay away from work for an entire 2 weeks. Oh, well. Gotta pay them bills somehow right? Love ya!